Koala Novels

Chapter 6

Welcome to Consciousness

The override needs Marcus. Marcus is in the main house with no signal.

I think about Quincy. Coastal Holdings runs port infrastructure. Coastal's traveling delegation will have an independent satellite phone — it is a requirement for their field engineers.

Yara comes up the stairs. She is bleeding from a long scrape on her forearm. Her face is gray.

"They held them back," she gasps. "Drew can't hold the bottom forever."

"Can you call Quincy."

She blinks. "Me?"

"You've been farming her assistant's contact info on LinkedIn since the day she was announced. Pull it now."

Her eyes skitter sideways.

I added the assistant. The assistant has me on mute since the second meet-and-greet.

"Call."

She is shaking too hard to type. She uses voice dial. The first call doesn't ring through. The second goes to voicemail. The third connects.

Her voice cracks.

"Ms. Yan. This is Yara Shelton. I framed Wren Tanaka-Hollis this morning. I was wrong. Garrett Shaw is trying to kill us all. The lighthouse satcom needs Marcus's auth. Please. The sat-phone in your team's bag — please call Marcus on the main-house line."

Silence on the other end. Ten seconds.

Quincy's voice. Cool.

"Switch to video."

Yara fumbles. The video comes up. Quincy can see the satcom console, the timer, the blood on Soren's hand, the rain beyond the lantern-room glass.

Her expression goes hard.

"Hold tight."

Five minutes. The lighthouse console pings.

Remote override request received.

Authorized by: Marcus Shaw.

Soren types in the admin key.

The satcom comes alive. Battery icon stabilizes. Signal bar climbs zero to one. One to three.

Outside the lantern-room glass, somewhere south of us on the sound, I hear rotor blades.

Coast Guard and state police rotors.

The speaker on the satcom console says one thing, in Garrett's own voice, flat for the first time.

"That can't be right."

Soren hits the final commit.

Communications restored.

They take Garrett out of the control room in cuffs. He is still smiling. The state police walk him past the foyer of the main house. He stops when he sees Soren and me.

"You think this is the end of it."

He looks at Soren.

"Your father — the Shaws, the Yans, the whole Pellucid board. None of them are clean."

He looks at me.

"And Wren. The things you can hear. Those are interesting."

The breath in my chest goes thin.

I have not told anyone — not Soren, not Jin, not Drew, not Indie, not the cafeteria barista, no one — that I can hear what people are not saying.

Soren steps fully in front of me.

Garrett's smile gets larger.

"Don't worry. The retreat was always going to test a specific cohort."

The officer's hand at his elbow puts pressure on him. He moves on.

What he leaves in the air sits in me like a sliver.

Specific cohort.

Sample.

I didn't grow a sixth sense.

Somebody switched one on.

The rest of the night runs in administrative shorthand. Marcus calls a halt to the exercise. Logan Cross is hauled off the island in the same Coast Guard cutter, formally charged with breach of fiduciary duty and a list of federal counts I lose track of. Yara is removed for her own protection as a cooperating witness.

She finds me in the gravel lot before they put her on the second boat.

Gray under her eyes. Voice quiet.

"Wren. I'm sorry."

I look at her.

Seven years of friendship. The last conversation between us, three words.

She is crying. "I was so jealous of you. You don't push, and people still like you. I clawed and clawed and I am still a punch line. I — I'm sorry."

"Yara," I say. "Helping you once doesn't mean you got to hurt me."

She nods. Tears land on the back of her hand.

"I know."

The thought-line is gone. There is nothing left in her head but emptied-out regret.

I don't need it now.

The ferry back to the mainland is the cleanest weather I have seen in four days. The sky is washed flat above the sound. Salt-spray haze along the rail.

Indie alternates between crying and laughing into her sleeve. Drew has the unlit Marlboro in his teeth and an ice pack on his knuckles.

"Tanaka-Hollis," he says. "Wherever you go next, I'm coming with you."

Jin, with her laptop on her thighs: "Same. Finance follows."

Mateo says: "I can do customer success."

I look at them. Four people on a boat railing. Four weeks I lived in roughly four days. It feels like a slow long waking up.

I used to think if I absorbed enough of it the room would settle.

Turns out that if you let someone hit you for long enough, they take it as permission and ask for more.

Soren is at my elbow at the rail. The wind has lifted his hair off his forehead. He looks twenty-two for the first time since the dock.

He holds his open palm out.

A pink Starburst sits in the center.

"For you," he says.

I almost laugh. "Soren. That was three months ago."

"I got the same two-pack. From the same gas station."

He stops. His voice drops.

"Wanted to give it to you for a while."

Can I hold her now.

Will she say no.

If she says no it's fine. Just — she's safe.

I unwrap the candy. I set it on my tongue.

The sweet opens up.

I say, "Soren."

He turns his head.

I open my arms.

"You can now."

He goes rigid for half a second. The tips of his ears go a color I have never seen on a human before.

A breath later he steps in, careful, and folds his arms around me like he is afraid the shape will dissolve. He smells like the inside of the rain shell I gave back to him in March. His heart is hammering against my temple, slowing, hammering.

In the middle of his chest his thought lands clean.

Finally.

Back at Pellucid, the corporate org chart goes through its biggest reshuffle in the company's history.

Marcus issues a public apology and steps down from the CEO role pending the SEC and DOJ investigations into the 2021 paperwork.

Quincy releases the contents of her mother's estate. Cordelia kept an unsent letter in her safe-deposit box, addressed to Quincy.

Cordelia didn't sign the 2021 affidavit because she wanted to. Garrett had her husband on a kompromat string and had let her know in detail what could happen to her daughter. She signed under duress and spent the four years after that compiling evidence she was never able to surface. She had set up a meeting with Theo Whitfield three days before he died on Route 64. Neither one of them lived to see the story open.

Soren reads the letter in our breakout room and sits there for a long time without moving.

I don't push him.

He says, quietly, "I spent five years hating the wrong person."

I sit down next to him.

"You hated the wrong person. That doesn't mean you walked the wrong road."

He looks at me.

This time I do not hear his thought.

Since the morning we got off the island, the device — whatever it is — has been turning down. First strangers fell quiet. Then people in elevators. Then coworkers I didn't know well.

I am surprised by the relief.

Hearing everyone's malice is not a free gift. It is a heavy room.

Soren says, "Can you still."

"Sometimes."

He's quiet a beat.

"Then I'll try to think less."

I almost laugh. "Think less of what."

He looks away.

His ears go red.

I can't hear him.

I think I know.

A month later, the Logan Cross case is formally indicted.

Yara is terminated for cause — fabricated evidence, sabotage of the cull exercise — and given a cooperator's recommendation in the larger proceeding, in lieu of charges. She sends me a long text on a Tuesday afternoon. I read it twice. I don't write back.

Not every I'm sorry gets to come back as it's fine.

The four ex-D-team get internal posts. Jin Carrera, Director of Financial Risk Controls. Drew Castellanos, back to a core enterprise AE seat. Indie Patel, Senior PM. Mateo Reyes, Lead, Customer Success.

I get a memo. Lead, Coastal Holdings Implementation.

Quincy Yan flies in for the signing.

She is wearing the same black suit. She slides a Montblanc across the conference table at me.

"My mother owed your team a debt. I'll settle it."

She lifts an eyebrow.

"This contract is not the settlement. Coastal won this deal because you worked for it."

I take the pen.

"Thank you."

We sign. Quincy goes back to her car. I close the binder and walk out of the boardroom and find Soren waiting at the end of the corridor, light-gray button-down rolled to the forearms, two coffees in his hands.

The afternoon sun is coming through the glass. He looks like somebody who did not, eight weeks ago, hold a man down to a conference table by the wrist.

I walk up.

"Mr. Whitfield. Project kickoff this afternoon. Will the technical lead make it."

He hands me a coffee.

"He will."

A beat.

"He always will."

I look up at him.

A single quiet thought passes through the back of my head, almost a whisper.

Want to hold her hand.

I look down. His other hand is at his side.

I reach across the corridor and slip my fingers between his.

He stops breathing for half a second. Then his fingers close around mine.

That night, an email lands in my personal Proton inbox at 11:47 p.m.

No subject. One attachment, encrypted.

I pull the key off a card in my wallet — a key I do not remember being given — and the file opens. Three lines on a white field.

Project Lucid // field record

Subject T: Wren Tanaka-Hollis

Activation confirmed. Stability: unknown.

I stare at the lines.

Soren walks back in from the kitchen of my apartment with a clean mug in his hand. He sees my face. He sets the mug down on the counter and crosses the room.

"What happened."

I turn the laptop toward him.

He reads. His mouth makes a flat line.

"The sender is masked. Multiple anonymization layers."

"Garrett's people?"

He is slow to answer.

"Not only."

The laptop pings. Another email. No attachment. One line.

Welcome to consciousness, Wren.

The city is loud and bright through the apartment window. Durham at 11:49 on a Tuesday in May.

I am sitting at my desk and somewhere below me the apartment building's lobby fills with a wave of voices that I should not be able to hear.

Malice. Want. Fear. Secrets.

They come in cleaner than the island. Closer.

Soren puts his hand over mine on the desk.

I turn to look at him.

In the middle of the flood, his thought lands the way it has every time. Plain. Awkward. Almost clumsy.

Don't be scared.

I'm here.

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